Check out this Sunday’s scripture, made especially to celebrate Thanksgiving this week.
I find it so easy to get sidetracked by the world around me. We live in this society of decadence and distraction. How could it not happen? Most of the things I waste time on could even be considered “good.” Looking up allergy friendly recipes- but how many of them do I actually make? Researching natural health solutions to the point of losing sleep- which ironically is not healthy. Reading article after article of other people’s interpretations of God’s Word- when I’m still working on reading the entire Bible myself!
So God put Psalm 119:37 in front of me the other day, and I had to share it. Because, really, everything is worthless compared to Him.
Does anyone else struggle with anger? As a teenager and young adult, I felt my intense anger and bitterness was justified. About a decade and two kids later, I can see it doesn’t matter how justified my anger is. It’s like a cancer. I can’t keep it contained. I can’t control it. If I hold onto it, it spreads to the innocent bystanders of my life.
I hate losing my temper with my children. Tonight, my daughter (almost 5) pulled her brother (almost 2) to the ground trying to yank his shoe off to get him ready for bath time. “Why would you do that?!” I snapped. When she responded defiantly, I got even angrier. After they were both in the bath, she could tell I was still bothered. Thinking my pensiveness was directed at her, she said, “I had a good day with you, Mama. I’m sorry I hurt my brother.” I told her I knew she was sorry, that I was actually upset with myself for losing my temper- I hate that I do that. She asked, “Why, because you don’t know what to do?” “No, I know what to do…the problem is I’m not the one who can do it..” BUT…
The best way to explain it to her was an analogy I heard on the radio a while ago. I can’t remember who said it, but it’s great. It’s like I’m the iPhone…I can’t get by for very long on my own power. As a Christian, I have to be plugged in to function through the power of God. She loved that, and expanded on it even further. I love the way her little mind works.
I don’t know about you, but when I truly surrendered to Jesus, I had A LOT of habitual sin to overcome. I was living a very ungodly life, and therefore feeling a lot of godly sorrow. Due to abuse as a child, I have been depressed since the age of 12, and only now- 17 years later!- am I beginning to emerge from that shadow. I chose to handle my depression, shame, and anger by avoiding my emotions instead of dealing with my past. I numbed my pain through alcohol and other substances, sought love and self worth through promiscuity, and isolated myself from family and friends, refusing to open up for fear of the possibility of being hurt again. But really I was hurting myself and those I loved.
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