Does anyone else struggle with anger? As a teenager and young adult, I felt my intense anger and bitterness was justified. About a decade and two kids later, I can see it doesn’t matter how justified my anger is. It’s like a cancer. I can’t keep it contained. I can’t control it. If I hold onto it, it spreads to the innocent bystanders of my life.
Be angry, and do not sin. 1
I hate losing my temper with my children. Tonight, my daughter (almost 5) pulled her brother (almost 2) to the ground trying to yank his shoe off to get him ready for bath time. “Why would you do that?!” I snapped. When she responded defiantly, I got even angrier. After they were both in the bath, she could tell I was still bothered. Thinking my pensiveness was directed at her, she said, “I had a good day with you, Mama. I’m sorry I hurt my brother.” I told her I knew she was sorry, that I was actually upset with myself for losing my temper- I hate that I do that. She asked, “Why, because you don’t know what to do?” “No, I know what to do…the problem is I’m not the one who can do it..” BUT…
I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength. 2
The best way to explain it to her was an analogy I heard on the radio a while ago. I can’t remember who said it, but it’s great. It’s like I’m the iPhone…I can’t get by for very long on my own power. As a Christian, I have to be plugged in to function through the power of God. She loved that, and expanded on it even further. I love the way her little mind works.
I’m the iPhone. The cord is Jesus, the only way I can plug into the power source: God. And that power running through the cord? The Holy Spirit.
I haven’t been heeding the Holy Spirit’s guidance like I should. I’ve been avoiding hard conversations that will help me repair some family relationships, or at the very least clear my conscience. I took a step towards that last night, but I need to keep going. I need to let go of the bitterness, unforgiveness, and anger I’ve been lugging around. Time for me to charge up and get to it!
And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, by whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, clamor, and evil speaking be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you. 3