I don’t know about you, but when I truly surrendered to Jesus, I had A LOT of habitual sin to overcome. I was living a very ungodly life, and therefore feeling a lot of godly sorrow. Due to abuse as a child, I have been depressed since the age of 12, and only now- 17 years later!- am I beginning to emerge from that shadow. I chose to handle my depression, shame, and anger by avoiding my emotions instead of dealing with my past. I numbed my pain through alcohol and other substances, sought love and self worth through promiscuity, and isolated myself from family and friends, refusing to open up for fear of the possibility of being hurt again. But really I was hurting myself and those I loved.
You, LORD, are my lamp; the LORD turns my darkness into light.
– 2 Samuel 22:29 NIV
Revelation 22 (English Standard Version)
The River of Life
22 Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, bright as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamb 2 through the middle of the street of the city; also, on either side of the river, the tree of life with its twelve kinds of fruit, yielding its fruit each month. The leaves of the tree were for the healing of the nations. 3 No longer will there be anything accursed, but the throne of God and of the Lamb will be in it, and his servants will worship him. 4 They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. 5 And night will be no more. They will need no light of lamp or sun, for the Lord God will be their light, and they will reign forever and ever.